~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Haven't written in awhile..... guess i've been sort of withdrawn. Always feel so exhausted, get sick of that feelin' .....if ya know what I mean. Just living day to day, trying not to have a heat stroke cause it's so damn hot here in Cali. The nightmares are as pervasive as ever, never get a break. As for the flashbacks, they seem to be in a "lull" at the moment, not having them as often as I do in the BAD times... not holding my breath as to how long this lull is going to last though. I used to think I was "getting better" when these times would come, eventually I discovered the bitter reality was that for me.... PTSD was something like the ocean, sometimes the water is mild... other times, the storm breaks out and all hell breaks loose. Oh well, I take em as I can get em, one day at a time.
I hope that this post finds any readers that I may have doing okay. Remember.... tomorrow doesn't always look exactly the same as today does....hang in there.
--April
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