Christmas...

Ohhhh fuck i'm getting drunk. I so love mudslides, makes the feeling of wanting to die not seem so hard to accomplish. But, as life goes, I'll probably pass out first. What the hell, might as well do it up right! Did I mention that I hate the God damn holidays!!? Well, I do. Off to guzzle some for liquid numbzit.

Hollidays...

Well, it's the middle of the holidays, when most people are all happy, content, joyous, and celebrating. It's a time when most people feel a sense of togetherness and belonging, but all I can feel is dread, loneliness, and hopelessness. If I weren't in so much pain, I would feel an emptyness that feels as if one is looking into a pit of blackness; a dark, empty obyss. I am constantly in termoil, not knowing if I should scream or just sob. It is so exhausting, I am so damn tired. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Just my thoughts.

--Just.... me