Exhausted

 

Nightmares are back in force. So sick of em. There is never an escape, they always come back, it's like reliving it all over and over, fuck! It's so depressing, draining, to keep fighting it when it seems so useless. I suppose that all I can do, yet again, is ride out the storm as best as I can. *sighs* I'm so tired.

*Just my Thoughts*

 

America Is Becoming A Communist Nation



A bill called HR 347, was signed into law by President Obama on March, 8th 2012. This law takes steps to further make peaceable protesting against the law. We Americans are losing our beloved country to communism. I am ashamed that I will someday leave my children to fight a horrible battle to retake their freedoms from a government that has forsaken them, and all of us, a battle that will leave this nation scarred forever.

My heart is broken, all I  can do is sob because I am powerless to do anything to change any of it. Without protest, the only line of defense we have left is offense, a civil war, and the thought of that is beyond comprehension. Where is our country going? What will the future hold for our children? I am horribly fearful of the answers. I hate life. The pain, hatred, and cruelty is far too much to bare. *smh*




*Just my Thoughts*

What Is Going To Happen....

 

My oldest daughter will be moving out very soon, which leaves only my youngest girl, (15) left living at home. With my two oldest kids gone, I find myself wondering what I have left to live for. I feel so very lost, alone. My children have always been my sole reason for living, and without them to focus on, to make the pain worthy of something, I don't know what I'll do. I'm 37 years old, disabled, and no one will hire someone like me for a job, so what do I have left? I don't know. I feel like my life has been so much in vain. I can only hope that I've given my children enough lessons so that they can have everything in life that I have never experienced. There just doesn't seem to be any hope, and I have no idea what to do. *shrugs*

*Just my thoughts*