Life Hurts To Much........

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All I can ever do is cry anymore. I cannot picture myself in the future. I can't see myself as 40, 50, 60 years old or more. The evolution of humanity feels so extremely negative to me that everything seems so very hopeless, people do not seem to be evolving for the good as a whole, and it is so depressing! I find it hard to comprehend why people rarely ever try to imagine what it must be like to be someone else, another race, gender, religion, or how it must feel to have a different sexual attraction that those who share the sexual "norms" that most other people share. People tend to ignore what it must be like to be apart of the many different kinds of "minorities" in this world, including the mentally ill, even though mentally ill people make up a very large percentage of people throughout the world. It makes me hate living more and more everyday. I think about what a relief it will be to end all of the pain, to make it stop, to never have to suffer the cruelty of it all ever again. To go through life every single day and night, having flashbacks, literally feeling the beating.... being choked with his belt, slapped, kicked in my side and stomach, being bitten all over my body, his teeth sinking into my breast, his "manly-hood" forcing inside of me, feeling as though my insides are being ripped apart, soul shredding agony, as if I'm a slave to being tortured repeatedly, and it's horrific! How can anyone not comprehend how the feeling of death feels so much more preferable? *Crying* Could you endure what feels like being put through that between 3 and 14 times a day/night, with NO relief, no time in between to heal a little, never ending? I live it, and I don't want to, I'm exhausted. *Crying*

Just........ Me