Unmoving.....

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I can't move, hardly breathe, don't have any real conscious thoughts, all I can do is try and go on. For days and nights, on and on, the flashbacks keep coming. I lay down, covered up tightly, and all I can do is cry until sleep comes, then I have nightmares, then I cry more, then more flashbacks come, all in a never ending cycle. I don't feel like eating, can't handle the thought of doing anything except being as still as I can be. I feel exhausted, beaten down to nothing. I don't know how I have made it this far, I guess that is why I go into what I refer to as the "zombie mode." I just don't know how much one person is expected to handle until it is enough. I suppose in the bigger picture of life, it really doesn't matter.

Just babbling.

Just_April1974