Unknowing.....

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Why is it than when a woman has depression or another mental illness, like PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) that people always seem to think that we are living in the past, like we CHOSE to be miserable, like we WANT to be in agony? I mean, if a war veteran says that he/she suffers from PTSD, people don't tell them that they need to get past it, get over it, move on, forget about it. Like telling them to "get over" seeing their friends guts hanging from their abdomens, or their arms and legs blown off, or getting brain matter splatted all over them when the guy next to them gets his head blown off. I guess that they get it into their head that a mental illness from that is understandable. It's like, the attitude that a vet doesn't have a choice but to become mentally ill because of that sort of trauma, but if a woman or man has PTSD from child mental/physical abuse, molestation, rape, etc., people seem to have the attitude that we are different, that the trauma is something that isn't so severe that we couldn't overcome if we just WANTED to badly enough. Sometimes the way people think, and their thought processes towards domestic abuse, rape, child abuse, etc., survivors makes me so depressed I can't stand it, other times it makes me so mad i'd like to slap the shit out of them and explain the stupidity in their way of thinking. When will people stop making the victims into the criminals in some way or another?Sometimes I wish that people like that could "walk in my shoes" for a week or so, and other times I think about what it's really like, and I know that there are a very limited amount of people that I would even truly wish this upon for even a day, much less years, or decades. *sigh* It just seems so damn hopeless most of the time, like everything is against me, and the harder that I fight, the more that I get beaten down. If the whole world ceased to exist tonight, I would be relieved. Hell, if I ceased to exist tonight, it would be a relief.

Just a few thoughts.

Just_April1974