If people could only be in my head, feel what I feel, their perspectives on pain would change so drastically. I am SO sick of the never ending flashbacks! Feeling his breath in my face, feeling him hitting, pinching, stabbing inside of me like a sword into soft flesh, so hard I vomit!! Smelling that cologne until I need to scream. My wrist burn from the ropes and I can NEVER get free!! My hands go numb, it only makes me feel all of the rest of my body screaming for it all to stop. Always so hard to breath, the constant stabbing inside. His laughter biting at me, his tearing remarks of how much I deserve it all and so much more!!! So sick of feeling it over and over and over, it never ever stops ripping me apart! His laughter, his control, my weakness, my body, my soul toyed with, at his every whim I am his play thing. A stab and burning inside, a punch and orders to obey! Begging brings more laughter, more pleasure for him, more agony for me, more hitting, more ripping, more biting! ALL I CANNOT STOP FEELING ALL OF IT! He has haunted me, has won, constant control of my essence, no escaping his wrath, no hope. Just more of him, of it!
--Just_April1974
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the path out is there,the signs to the way have already been placed,no matter ,what earth time is limited,my best gun right now,try to leave it better than you found it,when i give up hope,god know,s i,ll be dead//
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