Silent Screams........

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I can feel the screams in my throat, can feel them leaving, begging to be heard. They drift into the blackness seeking help, protection, safety, but none comes. Then the realization comes that no sound is leaving my lips, nothing can hear my pain, no one will come to save me. The sound stays trapped in my throat, unable to allert someone to the agony tearing through the deepest parts of my being. Slashing, ripping of tender flesh, I hear it in my ears like a sickening knaw at the pit of my stomach. Teeth sink into soft skin, blood oozing out into his mouth, he smiles. Pinches bring bloody briuses out to be clearly visible even in the darkness. The rod rips into me, deep, hard, forcing itself into a place that wasn't prepared, wasn't ready, did not want it. It tears small muscles, blood pours forth, down cold, clamy, small legs. Hair pulled back, teeth sinking into shoulder, rod slamming so hard I feel vommit comming up, it leaves me with no more control than I have over my soul. Slap, blood, head bashes tree behind me, back scrapes, flesh scraped away, blood dripping down. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! Please stoppppppp! NO MORE! NO MORE! NO, PLEASE GOD NO MORE!! Fog surrounds me, takes me away, my mind goes numb! Maybe death is coming to my rescue. Let it take me fast, let it be over, let him have no more control over my being. Anything to make it stop, I welcome it! Searing fire rips through me from the pits of my stomach into every nerve ending in my body!!! No, I hear the whispers coming out, no, no no i'm not dead, please let me die, please jusk kill me! Laughter rocks my small body, but it isn't my laughter. His lips touch my ear, he whispers, "No death for you, you don't deserve it you fucking whore. You are just like all of the other sluts, using, taking, playing with my heart. But this time, I am going to give you what slimes like you deserve, I am going to show you how you hurt others!" His hand goes around my throat, he is choking me, I cannot breathe! I feel the blackness coming back, heturns me facing down, pulling me tight, feel the ropes burning my wrist, he slams into me from behind, head hitting tree, over and over, have to hold it, let hand hit, scrape. no more, please no more! I'll be good, i'll do anything, just please please stop! I am so sooooo sorry, i'm sorry, i'll do whatever you want, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! NNOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

J_A1974