Welcome To: Into The Mind Of Insanity

It is my hopes that I may use this site to educate those people who are so vastly uninformed about mental illness, and those who suffer from it's horrible effects. Today, we still live in a world where mental illness is percieved to be something that happens to 'someone else,' and as such, people do not bother to become more educated on the issue until it affects their lives directly, and often very harshly. People who suffer from mental illness are still treated as lepers, shunned by mainstream society, and ignored by those who can offer any real hope for change. As such, the mentally ill will continue to go untreated in massive numbers because of the associated stigmas attached to mental illness. Until we change this, those with mental illness will pose a danger to society, but mostly they will remain as they are, untreated, and a greater danger to themselves.

I know this, because I am one of "them." For as long as I can remember, I have been vastly different from other people. I was, and am, what is so often termed as, "a loner." I have been severely depressed for as long as I can remember, and am often times, suicidal. When i was twelve years old, I was assaulted, and I felt like I didn't have anyone that I could turn to for help, and because of this I developed PTSD. (post traumatic stress disorder) (also termed as: critical incident stress) Over the years, repeated traumas caused the PTSD to become continuously more severe. In April of 2000, at the age of twenty-six, I finally began therapy. In the beginning of 2002, I was forced to begin to take medication because of another trauma. It had come to a point, that I knew if I didn't try something drastic, I would end up killing myself. From that day on, I have been on what many of us refer to as the "medication rollercoaster ride." On one medication after the other trying any, and everything to try and gain any real relief from the symptoms that I suffer from, which has been of very little help so far.

At later times I will discuss at greater lengths what it is like to be "me." I hope that people will check in often for updates, and feel free to ask me any questions that you would like.

Thank you for visiting.


--Blog Administrator,

Just_April1974